Loss

I honestly have no idea how I'm going to handle it when someone that hosts a podcast I've listened to for hundreds of episodes over many years ends up dying.

I think about how much time face to face I spend with friends, even those I've known for over a decade, and then I contrast that with some podcasts where they're on episode four hundred and something and I've heard them all going back many years.

Aside from immediate family, I don't think I've spent thousands of hours interacting with almost anyone on earth.

Maybe I'll feel like I did when Bowie and Prince died. Both made music that acted like a soundtrack to my life listened for thousands of hours over years, and both times it made me feel like an empty hole was just punched into me by their absence.